Another anxious day
“No panic” yesterday got compensated by panic today. It wasn’t that bad at all but wasn’t nice too. Most of the day was fine except of the evening when I had an attack right after the dinner. I felt that it was coming through the day since I was a little depressed all day. We went to Uwajimaya in the afternoon and on the way back I felt some breathing panic symptoms but was able to control them at the beginning. They slowly dissipated after that. During the dinner I also mostly controlled them but after the dinner I lost tracktion and had to spend couple hours or so trying to calm it down. Playing a little guitar did help since it required me to switch and start thinking about frets and strings instead of my throat, stomach and breathing. Playing guitar is my new way of dealing with panic attacks. So couple more years of panic attacks and I will become a professional guitar player 
